A Switch Flicked

The flower opening

Welcome

As the title suggests, something has been stirred, something deeper. It seems to me that something has been awakened from my Yoga practice that requires a different post to explore it. I will keep writing on My Spiritual Yoga Journey but there is a need for me to write on here as a separate space for those who are interested in what has been awakened for it may stimulate the inquiry and creativity into your own quest, and also use this page to directly share it.

I hope that this publication can be a safe space for everyone to go that little bit deeper and feel able to share your own journeys for there seems to be something lacking on Substack at present that enables people to share their own stories on a platform that enables it. Well, I hope this can rectify that.

Recently, the past couple of weeks or so, a switch has been flicked. Something for me has significantly changed. My relationship to my practice has deepened for one thing. Not just the quantity of it and looking forward to each session that inspire me more, but also the quality of it. Each session has seen new growth. Some new boundary that I have been unable to overcome being removed, some old mindset attributed to my incapacity because of my injury 11 years ago being transcended.

A lot has happened since the Full Moon in Scorpio and the New Moon in Gemini. It was during the Scorpio Full Moon yoga ritual that revealed some latent elements was needed to release. I had some visions from my past - some pertaining to my secondary school which I have previously explored in my therapy. But here was different. Not only was it while doing some moon magick but also in during my yoga session and what has been stored in my body (The Body Keeps the Score, van der Kolk). I shed a lot of tears as different perspectives to the narrative I told myself were revealed. I went on an astral travel as I began to see things on a vastly different level to before. And in that process I healed those areas. Areas that had become blockages holding me back. There were feelings of not good enough, of jealousy, anger, resentment, fear and silence. The silence was an interesting one which I had some memory of, I was mute for some of my experience and wrote in my journal trying to piece together what was happening in me and around me, but this time it was a different perspective. It was a silence resulting from my homelife, not just school which I had not expected and has changed how I view it. Breathing kindness into it and releasing it.

And then the New Moon in Gemini brought with it a sense of forgiveness which has allowed me to move in a completely different way. Stronger, with more purpose, stepping into my power and moving assuredly. This was in some ways unexpected. It was like a bolt out of the blue to coin a mostly overused phrase but it does signify quite how it hit me with a deeper inspiration and enlighten me, illumine my purpose and why I am doing this now. And as it hit me I became more enlivened. I see things in a completely different way. Not clouded by a sense of guilt - I should have: done this sooner; been doing this by now. And comparing myself to an expectation borne from an outside figment of perfection.

And it released me from other bondages.

I think for now that is a lot to be getting on with. In other posts on here I will be exploring more precisely details as pertaining to the Asanas and the lived experience of movement in them.

I will also explore the psychic areas as they arise. This is the first post and as such it is an introductory and exploratory post outlining my vision and purpose for writing a new publication. I hope it meets you with inspiration and a desire to look deeper into what can feel like a solitary practice. I hope we can come together on here and share our experiences for they are our lived truths.

It has been while writing on here, My Spiritual Yoga Journey, that some things began to make sense. Now I am at a different level and in that sense I will be on here, Mahnatoth, writing my experience for helping you to think your own experiences and perhaps feel able to share it too. I would really love to hear from you as our stories are what makes the practice of yoga.

I hope to post regularly, once a week feels a lot but once a month feels too little so somewhere in the middle of that. We shall see. Also, keep taking a look on My Spiritual Yoga Journey for I will be using that publication to post about the Moon Phases, Tarot and my Yoga Flow. Otherwise, if you are wanting more about the deeper elements of Yoga and how it resonates deep within us then come take a look on here.

I am so thankful and many Blessings to you for taking the time to read my post.

Thank you!

Namaste 🙏✨🕉️

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